I Often Think of Shirley Valentine. . .

Diary - Entry 33

If any of you out there have ever seen the movie "Shirley Valentine" then you know what tonight's topic is about.  If not, you should rent it. . .

It is about a woman, who, half way through her unsatisfying marriage, goes to Greece on a group tourist trip and ends up starting  over.  All alone.

At the age of 47, I have had only 5 intimate relationships  (all long term) during those years.  To some, it is more than one too many, to others it seems minuscule.  I have been accused of many more, but only I and God, know that those five are what I have truly done from a physical intimacy level.

Unlike Shirley, I am fully aware of what my absence would do to my family.  But still one has to wonder what the other side, Which clings to the secret doors, buried deep within out minds, what would happen if we gave in to desires, longings, past imperfections and the every present fantasy that knows no bounds.